I love all of my friends. Every last one of them. All of them are good people that are fun to be around.
Else I wouldn't be friends with them.
They're all talented people.
And when I'm around them, I can't help but feel incredibly inferior.
I'm not talented.
I have friends that are amazing writers, actors, artists, etc. Name it, and there's a friend I have that's amazing at it. Exceptional at it, even.
And here I sit, kinda halfway decent at anything useful.
I mean, I'm funny, sometimes. I don't even think half of my jokes are funny, and a lot of the times no one laughs at them.
I'm good at video games, which is the product of days upon days spent sitting on my ass and playing them all day because I never had anything else to do. Nothing worthwhile, anyways.
You can put a word in front of me and I can make more words out of the same letters than most people. I don't see how that's useful at all, but, I mean, it's there.
Anything logic related I seem to be good at. Puzzles and shit.
I can do funny voices, so I mean, that's something.
I'd be a great actor, if my laziness and anxiety wouldn't get in the way of it.
A few have told me I'm one of the smartest people they know, but when you look at me struggle with academics, you'd swear I was an idiot.
Despite testing for being gifted in creativity, anytime I try to do anything creative I hit a massive bout of brain death and can't think of anything to save my life.
I can't draw anything that's not a stick figure.
I can't write anything that's not an essay or some sort of rant. This blog is entirely rants.
One of my friends is getting a book published, another is in plays left and right, a lot of them compete in poetry slams all the time, some friends sell their art and take commissions, and here I sit, happy for and proud of them, but seething with envy over their talents.
I mean, hey, I might have a job.
Maybe I'll be good at
I dunno
Pressing buttons on a cash register.
I want to be talented at something, but I never try to improve myself. I know all of these things my friends do take practice and aren't just a natural skill.
I guess I'm good at being a hypocrite.
