Back-pedaling.

I'm not quite who I want to be.
But I've come a long way from who I was.

But recently I seem to be going back.
A lot of withheld anger is coming out lately.
My jokes are becoming more agressive.
More mean.
I didn't even realize it until someone pointed it out.

I had the time of my life ripping someone to shreds the other day. Sure, it was a simple comic debate on the internet, but I hadn't had that much fun insulting someone's ignorance in a long time. Primarily because I never really went out of my way to insult someone's ignorance for a long time.

I'm getting mean again.

I don't want to.
I don't want to go back so far when I just started moving forward.

I'm being a lot more conscious of everything I say since it was pointed out to me.

I don't want her to find out who I used to be.
I don't want my old friend to see me go from who I am now back to the person she cut out of her life.
I don't want to hurt people.

I don't want to lose everyone again.